做自己想做的事，别让此生遗憾

已经好久好久没有写部落格了，差点就连这个部落格的存在都忘记了。

这么多年了，我还是努力地工作着。是的，一点一滴地埋头苦干，时而和同事闲中作乐。可是，每一天都是快乐地忙碌着，每一天都过得很充实。

年纪渐长，很多人就会开始问自己，是不是得做点什么，让自己的人生不一样。曾经有个时期我也会这样想。后来，我改变了我的想法。 与其苦苦寻思要做点什么，不如想想自己还有什么想要做的。

一直想要试试爬山，2013年我爬了好几座山，还征服了哥打京那巴鲁山。

2014年，旱鸭子的我为了陪年幼的弟弟学游泳，自己也学着泡进泳池。每周练习一次，终于也掌握了在水里不会挣扎的技巧。虽然游泳技术还是很“烂”，但是至少现在的下水不再是战战兢兢。

2015年，我终于第一次尝试了攀岩。没有很困难，也没有很容易。却发现自己还能学习许多的事情。真的挺开心和充实的。

这些年下来，我也慢慢开始学习烹饪。觉得自己的烹饪技术还加强了不少。

今年，就在昨天(22/5/2016)，我终于设计了第一双高跟鞋，还创立了一个属于自己的品牌 -- ElegantZ。这双高跟鞋已经在网上发售，在全球都能订购。每售出一双我就能赚取15美金，但是已经不是赚钱的问题了，没试过所以去尝试，最重要是自己开心就好。只要没影响到别人，追寻快乐还是必要的。

最后，只想对自己说，去做自己想做的事，别让此生遗憾。

一段人生，一把朋友……

我觉得每一个人生阶段都有不同的好朋友。

还未上学前，我和妹妹时常和佑胜以及两个表哥，阿良与阿杰玩在一起。因为没有烦恼，不用上课，时间都过得好像用不完似的。

小学时，和我最好的朋友是序雁、恩庭、国威、幼诗和翠莹。那一段时间是快乐的，因为我们都没有什么烦恼，最怕是朋友不跟我们好。是不是觉得记忆犹新？对，那时候我们都爱讲，“我跟他好，我不要跟你好！“。只是一两天时间，我们就会忍不住跟对方讲回话，和好如初。那时候，我们玩追追、跳绳、五粒子…… 上到四年级，进了优秀班，那是最大的转捩点，人生改变良多皆始于此。好朋友开始不再联络，游戏没得玩，只剩下一堆永远做不完的功课！匆匆地，三年就这样过去了！还好，让我认识了玉梅、怡倩、敏仪、嘉惠、宏波、景镕、筠蕾……时间才不觉得太寂寞！虽然优秀班的时间挺沉闷，但是有景镕的笑话调剂下，压力也少了很多！

上到中学，让我遇到了晓妮、薇玲、丽君、瀚明、国星等人……大家开始打打闹闹过日子，咱们比功课、和老师开玩笑、学者那种好像一世纪都学不会的国文文法、排舞为教师节表演……我还记得，虽然我们的舞蹈不伦不类，但是我们很开心能为老师表演。但是，现在我打定不会再有勇气呈现舞蹈。中一换班，让我认识了佩媚、权光、文顺、慧沁、国祥、Rebecca……还有，时常会脸红的家辉，很有上进心的张家伦……权光时常搞怪，我和佩媚总是被他都得哈哈笑！还有，我的其中一个好朋友是康文，陪我一起去找补习班、一起做模型。中四再分班，遇上了瑾仪、国辉、国威、荣喜和师傅均威等人，成立了一个纯属搞笑作用的“弱智会“。虽说如此，他们却年年为学校赢得环保比赛冠军！

我仍旧记得我们一同为国庆日布置课室，结果出动总动员制作国旗。还有，插班生伟文，一个让当时的我觉得不可思议的男孩。他爸爸的诗词被用作SPM国文理解试卷里的考题，讲述的是有关他爷爷的事情，可是他一直是国文最高分的小子，差点就因为他爸爸和他爷爷的考题给弄垮了。 因为这件事咱们笑了很久，因为他说批改的老师不可能比他更了解他爷爷。天啊！班上还有个传统，谁拿最高分就得把考卷交出，让一众好友揉皱发泄。后来，这个传统不懂被哪个老师发现了，把我们训了一顿。

中五毕业后，许多朋友都各奔前程。上中六的上中六，上大学的上大学，出国的出国，进学院的进学院……我的朋友群也换了美珊、Wai Kean、其辉、丽薪、炳堂……

过后，我认识了印尼留学生飞燕、Daniel、Pik Foong、Raymond、Cherry、俊权……我们一起温习功课，一起赶电影上映，一起吃夜宵，还有一起傻乎乎地赶Assignments……糊里糊涂，我们就毕业了！穿上毕业礼服，我们不再像以往一样为分别而流泪，相反的，我们很期待等待着我们的前程。

没想到一转眼，我们已经在外面打滚了五、六年……工作的忙碌磨去了不少我们的时间、青春，也开始令我的记忆模糊……我只能依稀记得一些以往的朋友和部分开心的段落。

虽然佑胜已经在美国定居，阿杰表哥也因血癌过世了。有些朋友现正身在外国，有些已有家庭，还有很多我已经不认得的朋友，都已断了讯息。不管有没有机会再见，在这里和你们干一杯！祝友谊万岁！因为你们都曾经在我生命里留下回忆，也是我心里最深的思念！

P/S: 很遗憾，脑袋不能一下记得所有朋友，所以文章没有尽录所有好友的名字。其中遗漏的还有《星洲日报》学记，特别是第11届学记、学哥维岩、学姐剑兰和清莲，还有玉秀、曾毓林、成熹、伟康、Su-Ann、YY、Evon、Kimberly……

Sun Rise

Back Row (From Left to Right): Ray, Su-Ann, I myself and JaQ

Front Row (From Left to Right): Evon, Kim and Daniel

Haning out with old friends are nice!!!

Sun Rise - A Hope for the Day

Showering with Sunshine, I found myself hugging the Happiness..

JaQ & Alice at Broga Hill

These are the pictures captured at Broga Hill and we love them so much..

Trip to Broga Hill

On 27th June 2009, I have went to Broga Hill with my friends - Ray, Daniel, Kim, Su-Ann, Evon and my boyfriend JaQ.

This is a trip planned by Ray & his colleagues. So it is a big group went there together. I met my old friend, Bernice there.. World is small, I do not know Bernice is now Ray's colleague.

Normally, I don't like this kind of outdoor activities. Sweat a lot, suffer a lot, etc.. But this time, I seriously enjoy it.

We woke up at 4am. Journey started at 4.30am. Reached there at 6am because waited Ray's colleagues in the middle of our journey. When we reached to the palm tree farm, it was so dark and we need to rely on torch light to move forward. We climbed difficultly and finally reached to the peak of the hill. Sun is not rise yet.. Hey! Why are we got up so early??

At about 9am, the sun started to rise. It is BEAUTIFUL!! Everyone clapped their hands and some people screamed. I do not know why they want to scream, but I didn't do so.

We have taken a lot of nice pictures. That is so beautiful! Therefore, I placed this picture here.. Yes, my boyfriend and I myself enjoying the sunrise moment! So romantic!!! :-)

Event Management Experience

Must admit, I really like to run events.. This year, have been organizing quite a number of big shows with very limited resources, I really feeling tired. Yes, extremely tired. I started feel like getting older and older, and my brain is not functioning well.. It tends to be forgetful. Maybe I have been killing my brain cells these few years..

I hope I am not getting heart attack problem.. Chris from eBay hopes I will not burst my vein, but I believe I am nearly heading to that stage.. I don't like people use "relationship" to threaten me (e.g. I know .., you should help me to do..) I don't like people blame my team without given me a proper reason.. I don't like people pointing finger at me when I am not at fault.. I don't like people demanding.. I don't like people take credit without delivering her tasks.. I don't like people complaint without knowledge on the real situation. However, organizing an event, these are the situations I always encounter.. I always tell my team, must get use to it, never shed a tear!!!

I think passion is important, but motivation is more critical. How to motivate myself is something I still need to learn.. but I believe, with passion, I still can find ways to motivate myself..Now I wonder when can I retire early.. so I can read all my favourite books, listen to my favourite music.. Also, to accompany my family members and my lonely boyfriend. I have been sacrificying my personal time on my work life where I cannot find the balance.. But I enjoy my work because it is challenging!!! Thanks to my boss as he recognizes my efforts, understands my strength so well and most importantly he has confidence on me.. I like my boss so much!

Anyway, this Sunday I must celebrate Father's day with my daddy and my lovely family members. I hope I can slowly find the balance point, so I will be able to take good care of my family and my boyfriend while remain to be a capable assistant to my boss. I know it is not easy, but i will try..

On Leave for Vacation or for Work??

I have applied 2-day leave so I can go for vacation to relax since there is no event in May. I am not in KL today.. Laptop is not with me as this is a personal trip, I am not suppose to check my emails or work.. That means relax.. However, there are a numbers of incoming calls from office and business associates who is expecting me to work durng my leave..

My boss not even call me when he noticed I am on leave.. Why can't everyone respect my precious holidays. This is so precious to me.. Finally came out with press releases need to be translated urgently.. Hey everyone, I have placed into the calendar and sent to everyone that I will be on leave.. Can't you all plan ahead to assign tasks to me?

I have no choice, after much consideration, I bought a ticket and rush back to KL to check my emails and assign tasks to my colleagues accordingly. Should I celebrate my leave with my piling up emails and the translated tasks? No option, life still going on..

Just like yesterday night, boss SMS-ed me to notify me that our business associate, Mr. Chan has passed away. I was so shock because he has recovered from his cancer last year. He is so friendly and smart in running business, he has so many plans in his mind, he wanted to do so much, but still have to leave the lovely world. Life always no options.

Young Entrepreneurship? Funding?

Yesterday I attended an informal gathering related to young entrepreneurship at Pavilion's Glitter Cafe, i think maybe it is specifically for technopreneurs only.

In fact, I don't really enjoy the gathering because I only heard of a lot of negative feedbacks, comments and complaints.. I heard they mentioned about funds for entrepreneurs. They talked about Grants and Loans that available in the market. I think I have to admit, working 4 years in MIRC, I am good enough to brief people and even giving talk about SME and technopreneur funds. I found that most of the grant and loan applicants are not familiar with the fund application process and when they are rejected, they will spread the negative news out..

In Malaysia, many funds are available to assist businesses to be started, to grow and expand. However, many people have a different view on all these funds. Sometime I have to admit, applicants are too sensitive. I will need to address this point because I met a lot of them.. I think some time I will need to agree with what Keng Yew said. Keng Yew is a technopreneur, he said that as an entrepreneur, you cannot always sit there to complaint, should find a way to solve the problem. I think that's right.. Entrepreneur is person who would like to take risks.

When those participants said they don't understand why entrepreneurs cannot start their new ventures with their own money, but wait for the government grants approval. My comment is they are not entrepreneurs. Entrepreneurs will know there will be risks whenever they want to be entrepreneurs.

Sometimes, people want to start business because they know grants and soft loans are available. This is a wrong perception. Government wants to hep those people really intended to start a business, therefore government provide grants and soft loans to businesses to assist them. Please bear in mind, only 50% of your business will be funded by government grant if your application is approved.

Sometimes, people looking for loan to cover another loan he borrowed. That is very funny! No grants or soft loans are allocated for you to clear your debts. Sometimes, the borrowers were blacklisted by Bank Negara, they will still insist to try for grants and loans application. If you really encounter the above mentioned problems, please look for AKPK to assist you. No other financial institutions or banks can lend their hands out because you are not a qualified applicants. Don't blame the banks, they just do their jobs. Will you be doing a business with people who cannot give you any return? Definitely not.. therefore don't blame, sit down and think of other ways to solve your financial problems.

I believe Young Entrepreneurs should think positively and must be able to motivate people surrounding you. Never ever spread the words out saying that government is not helping SMEs or technopreneurs.. Must bear in mind, your application being rejected does not reflect that your friends will be rejected too. From my perspective, I would say NO HARM TRYING!

Young entrepreneurs, Gambateh!!